Twenties minutes more to cook for the potatoes so I'll take the twenty to reflect on all I have to be thankful for this year:
* Matt- my wonderful love of my life
* our beautiful love that continues to grow
* our excitement for our future together
* our warm and cozy home and the improvements we make on it
* the price increase of its value that will make all the work feel justified not just for pleasure (hey, might as well be thankful for what's to come)
* our future children who we can't wait to welcome to this world
* our families and their health and well-being this year
* our friends and their health and well-being this year
* time with Pam before she passed
* our beautiful wedding and the financial help paying for it
* the number of supportive friends and family who were there to celebrate with us
* healthy babies born to my friends
* our pets and their easy-going attitudes and health, and the joy they bring
* our jobs and their flexibility, reliability, and stability
* a generous gift that helped us improve financially
* safe traveling
* the week we were able to spend in Idaho, despite the circumstance
* visiting Joe and getting to spend time with him
* winning several weeks of our college pick-em
* getting to take my mom to Chicago
* the amazing and surprising proposal on Dec 14, 2010 :)
* Matt being willing to move here and enjoying it so far
* making new friends
* good food
* setting good financial goals to lead us to wealth
* positive thinking
* that I feel so much more calm and happy than I've ever felt
* coaching Girls On The Run
* our health
* running and adrenaline highs
* our beautiful mountains views and forests and river
* positive relationships with family
* beautiful weather today
* fun technology :)
* my girls' weekend at the beach
* my bachelorette party and having such great friends as coworkers
* going to bed early to cuddle with my husband while watching sitcoms
* the fact that getting up at 7am doesn't kill me anymore
* laughing
* good music
* turning 30 :)
* the ability to keep faith
* coffee
* seeing friends and family get what they've been desiring
* special time alone on our honeymoon
* the opportunity for the grading papers job to discover how much I did not want continue
* cookies
* the opportunity to work from home
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Time for a New Decade*
Today is my 30th birthday. When I don't think about whatever my expectations for 30 were -- to be married, owe a home, have children, have my finances figured out and a job I loved (most of that is true) -- I'm excited about moving into this new decade of my life. Twenties were a time of self definition. I won't say "discovery" because I think you always know who you are, even though you change throughout it.
When I think of twenties, I see myself as a lonely, melancholy English major walking to class in the rain, wondering about the future of my life and daydreaming about doing anything else. I see myself feeling fiercely about many things, and people. I see myself driving that beat-up Subaru too fast over the pass and really loving the saying "you can sleep when you're dead" and quotes and tragic stories and emo music and rebelling against materialism and what was expected. I see myself giving too much without recognizing and asking for what I wanted and needed. I see myself feeling so adult getting my first job out of college and feeling frustrated that I felt coworkers and clients just viewed me as an ignorant young kid. I see myself feeling too young to be married as I watched my friends tie the knot, too young to be a parent until I was present when Jenn gave birth, then really knowing what I wanted my future to look like. I see myself struggling, struggling with relationships, struggling with my recovery, struggling in Texas, struggling to stay positive. I see myself eventually trying to have faith, believe with an unwavering belief, learning to really assert myself, meeting the love of my life, feeling finally grown up, and ending the decade with the excitement of getting engaged, of marrying my dream guy, of getting to be ready to be a parent.
I am glad it happened how it happened til now I suppose. I wasn't ready in myself to be where I am now. Honestly I'm glad my 20s are over. Because although I think I may need to leave behind super short mini skirts (maybe...) and glittery girly makeup (ok, actually no) and the ancst of being a young adult, I saw my thirties as being a time of doing, of feeling set in myself and confident, of masterfully completing my job, of managing my affairs with at least some experience, of feeling the respect that comes with age, of being a grateful and loving wife, of soon becoming a providing and loving mother, of being a good advice giver and... moving ahead in my life with more sureness and joy and trust. I look forward to this next decade of creation and boldly living out our dreams. I see my 30s as stepping into my power. Rocking my life. I'm excited for what lies ahead.
Goals for my 30s (which may or may not be too lofty):
* Love Matt with all I have and continue to build our beautiful relationship
* Create our family
* (re)get fit and maintain health to ensure long, healthy life
* Eat more substance and less junk
* Buy a (somewhat) larger house with a big yard, big trees, a living room, a flat driveway for a basketball hoop, a little larger bedrooms, a front porch for sitting...
* Go on a cruise
* Go to Europe
* Live in joy, trust in spirit, smile, think positively, express gratitude
* Appreciate my job and try to engage myself as much as possible
* Establish a strong financial plan and stick to it
* Learn some new great go-to recipes
* Spend quality family time
Wow I thought I'd have more goals for 10yrs but maybe that's too much time to tackle. I'll make the rest as I go along, and shorter term goals :)
When I think of twenties, I see myself as a lonely, melancholy English major walking to class in the rain, wondering about the future of my life and daydreaming about doing anything else. I see myself feeling fiercely about many things, and people. I see myself driving that beat-up Subaru too fast over the pass and really loving the saying "you can sleep when you're dead" and quotes and tragic stories and emo music and rebelling against materialism and what was expected. I see myself giving too much without recognizing and asking for what I wanted and needed. I see myself feeling so adult getting my first job out of college and feeling frustrated that I felt coworkers and clients just viewed me as an ignorant young kid. I see myself feeling too young to be married as I watched my friends tie the knot, too young to be a parent until I was present when Jenn gave birth, then really knowing what I wanted my future to look like. I see myself struggling, struggling with relationships, struggling with my recovery, struggling in Texas, struggling to stay positive. I see myself eventually trying to have faith, believe with an unwavering belief, learning to really assert myself, meeting the love of my life, feeling finally grown up, and ending the decade with the excitement of getting engaged, of marrying my dream guy, of getting to be ready to be a parent.
I am glad it happened how it happened til now I suppose. I wasn't ready in myself to be where I am now. Honestly I'm glad my 20s are over. Because although I think I may need to leave behind super short mini skirts (maybe...) and glittery girly makeup (ok, actually no) and the ancst of being a young adult, I saw my thirties as being a time of doing, of feeling set in myself and confident, of masterfully completing my job, of managing my affairs with at least some experience, of feeling the respect that comes with age, of being a grateful and loving wife, of soon becoming a providing and loving mother, of being a good advice giver and... moving ahead in my life with more sureness and joy and trust. I look forward to this next decade of creation and boldly living out our dreams. I see my 30s as stepping into my power. Rocking my life. I'm excited for what lies ahead.
Goals for my 30s (which may or may not be too lofty):
* Love Matt with all I have and continue to build our beautiful relationship
* Create our family
* (re)get fit and maintain health to ensure long, healthy life
* Eat more substance and less junk
* Buy a (somewhat) larger house with a big yard, big trees, a living room, a flat driveway for a basketball hoop, a little larger bedrooms, a front porch for sitting...
* Go on a cruise
* Go to Europe
* Live in joy, trust in spirit, smile, think positively, express gratitude
* Appreciate my job and try to engage myself as much as possible
* Establish a strong financial plan and stick to it
* Learn some new great go-to recipes
* Spend quality family time
Wow I thought I'd have more goals for 10yrs but maybe that's too much time to tackle. I'll make the rest as I go along, and shorter term goals :)
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