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| Not a lot more nesting to do... |
For Matt's gift, he's had this fantasy of decorating (well, at first it was) the garage with replicas of the Boston Celtics' championship banners, like they have hanging in the Garden, and you can buy them but they're really expensive (like $50+ each, and there are 17 of them). So I'm attempting to make them of felt myself. It would've been easier to cut out green letters and apply them to the white than to cut out the white, but there wasn't enough green felt at the store and I wanted it to have a green background. I was hoping to have them all done by V Day but I didn't buy the materials in time then I had no time to work on it without Matt knowing. I had to sneak out to my parents' house one night just to finish one for V Day. Luckily he was very happy (claims it's the nicest gift anyone's made him; he's easy to please at least!). Guess I have an art project to work on before baby... And good thing I did that because I had ordered Matt his favorite cake from this bakery in town then totally forgot to pick it up. I really am getting forgetful. Pregnancy brain is totally hitting. It's annoying.
I'm also getting much more uncomfortable this week. Still have heartburn and indigestion. Carsen's movements feel huge sometimes! Check out what I think was his butt (because I'm pretty sure his feet were what was kicking me under my left rib, you can see a little bulge there too). I doesn't hurt but it's not exactly comfortable; feels like you think it would feel- like someone inside you stretching out and stretching your skin. If the skin just above that in my upper abdomen didn't sting so much, I wouldn't complain but lately it's been painful enough to keep me awake. I've started applying ice to it.And sleeping is starting to becoming an issue too. There's the peeing every 2 hrs but also the hip/glut pain and now there's a new dull back pain at some point in the night. I can usually make it til about 4-5am then I'm really uncomfortable. Sleeping mostly sitting up has become a nearly nightly thing. It also helps with the heartburn. Not to be complaining about this miracle of pregnancy but I can totally see why women say they're just about sick of it and over it by this point. Yep. I can't imagine going late; one of my friends from h.s. just delivered TEN days late!! Ugh. And I take back whatever I've said about it being cool to have twins; double the uncomforableness, no thanks. But whereas I have been saying to Matt, "no, I can deal with this longer, I want Carsen to be nice and healthy when he comes...," I'm getting to saying "ummm, yeh, not really ANY day now but pretty close to that... I'd like to be able to breathe easily again, and walk, and eat." Plus I had felt like I hoped to go to our March 10 due date because of all the work I'd get done at work; that'd be the perfect day to have it all wrapped up because it's the start of the conference I'm really involved in. But now I could care less; in fact I'd love to be pulled out of work at any time. Loose ties hanging? Sorry coworkers, I know you can deal... I've done a lot of good work into documenting and trying to keep things in really good shape to prepare for my leave. Wouldn't mind being done.
I finally had a nice dream about Carsen too, except that I woke up (in my dream) not pregnant and having no memory of giving birth; he was in his bassinet and was quite a bit bigger than newborn size. But, no joke, he looked EXACTLY like Matt in my dream. Not like Matt looked as a baby. Like Matt as a kid from pics I've seen/ Matt as an adult but in baby form, but with blue eyes. I just stared at him in the dream and thought, "wow he didn't get anything from me." But boy was he cute :) And he didn't turn into anything. Just a normal baby.
So I can stop worrying about too early of a birth now. Thank goodness we've made it! 37 Weeks: Baby is now considered "full term," even though the due date is three weeks away. If he comes now, his lungs will likely be mature enough to fully adjust to life outside the womb. (Some babies need a bit more time, though.) Baby weighs 6 1/3 pounds and measures a bit over 19 inches, head to heel (like a stalk of Swiss chard). Many babies have a full head of hair at birth, with locks from 1/2 inch to 1 1/2 inches long. But don't be surprised if baby's hair isn't the same color as Mom and Dad. And then, of course, some babies sport only peach fuzz.
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| Look at that BELLY! |
As of today, he made it to being a Pisces! If you think astrology has any kind of bearing (I think there's some truth to it), according to babycenter, Pisces is the Dreamer: A deeply creative imagination enhances your Pisces child's experience of life, imbuing it with varied hues and shimmering possibilities. You might find him staring off into space, but there's plenty going on in that unfathomable mind -- feelings, impressions, and bits of intuition woven together in a rich mosaic of perception. Pisces children are incredibly tender and compassionate, and they need extra affection from their parents. Your little Pisces may want to be held nonstop as a baby and will still need plenty of hugs, kisses, and encouragement as he grows older. Pisces children are often more concerned with their instincts than with logic, and more interested in their dreams or fantasies than in "real life." As the parent of a Pisces child, you can help to ground him in reality; avoidance and escapism are typical Piscean traits. So is idealism. Your Pisces child may have grand visions of the way life could and should be, which will then fall flat in the harsh light of reality. Since your little Pisces is so emotionally sensitive (as well as physically and psychically), you'll need to be careful which people and influences you expose him to and what you feed him. Don't be surprised if he brings home stray kittens and other friends in need. His heart's capacity to love and serve is enormous -- sometimes to a fault. Your Pisces child needs to protect himself against people who would take advantage of his giving and gullible nature, and that's one area in which you, as his parent, can step in.
We'll have to see over time if he ends up resembling this description. I just like what it says about Scorpio parents (both Matt and me): Your Pisces child possesses a deeply feeling nature, just like you do, and he shares your primary need for a devoted emotional connection with a loved one. You make a wonderful parent-child match, because your instinct as a parent is to forge a strong, sure bond with your child. You also love the way your little Pisces understands your feelings, even from a young age. You can be rather intense, but your child's sweet, affectionate nature is one of the few that's able to soften you up a little. In fact, go out of your way to be particularly sensitive with your little Pisces. He isn't as emotionally resilient and self-protective as you are, so you should take care to understand and preserve his feelings, even while you help him build his psychic strength -- so important in this sometimes harsh world.
A perfect match! Well chosen, Carsen! Although... Heberling men tend to be already sensitive ;)
Well, our O.B. had said she thinks he'll be earlier than March 10... but as of yesterday's check-up, I haven't progressed since last week. Still 2.5cm dilated. Ugh, she thinks he might be a big baby though. I asked if it was unusual that he hasn't dropped yet and she thinks he's just trying to maximize his available space. When Matt asked her how big she thought he might be, her guess was 8lbs 12oz!! WHOA! That sounds HUGE!! And strangely, I haven't gained weight in the last two weeks and this week it looks like I lost a pound.
Honestly last week I felt a little freaked out that he could be early. But today I find myself disappointed that I haven't progressed any further. It's this weird anxious feeling of wanting it to be the time and also feeling freaked that it might be the time... I don't know. I'm trying and will keep trying to just enjoy the present (which we'll never have again- this peace, this freedom) but I also feel discouraged like it's soooo long that I still have to wait and wonder when it will be and how I'll know and how everything will go and what comes next. And the things I'd like to do before he arrives, we won't. Like I really, really, really wanted to go to the coast this weekend suddenly. But it looked like the weather would only be okay on Sunday, plus I didn't think I'd be up for that long of a car ride (I'm already so uncomfortable in the car). Plus we didn't want to spend the money or be that far from home, just in case. So... anyhow... just waiting...
